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Leila de Lima Is a Woman Unchained

By Mookie Katigbak Lacuesta
Dec 15, 2023
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Leila de Lima is just getting used to being in the public eye. It’s been one month since she’s come out of an almost seven-year detention in Camp Crame. It’s a little disorienting, she says to a private audience before her first of three successive interviews.

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Ahead of today’s media blitz were two groups of well-wishers: the first, a medical practitioner who promises any kind of medical attention—pro bono— should de Lima need it. The second group is composed of a dressed-down, well-heeled cadre of young titas. As each group beats an exit, more unannounced guests arrive.

There’s an earnest lift in the eyebrows when her guests pledge any kind of support for the former senator. Pop psychology will tell you that the look of love means a dilation in the pupils, a kind of glaze in the eye. We’ve seen this look in the eyes of local fandoms across the country. We see it now in the eyes of de Lima’s visitors as they skirt through the doorway with an almost apologetic sense of purpose.

"They wanted me to be silenced, they wanted to break my spirit because I was fighting for the rights of others—but there’s still more of me.”

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But this is no backstage meet and greet. She is being interviewed in a place called the Arnold Janssen Kalinga Center in Tayuman, Manila. It’s a center helmed by activist priest Flavie Villanueva, SVD, who does feeding programs for Manila’s homeless. Villanueva was a frequent visitor to Camp Crame during de Lima’s detention, and the former senator has chosen this place for today’s series of interviews. As vocal critics of the former administration, the center can hardly be called a safe space for either of them, but there’s courage in shared danger.

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As de Lima makes her way to the afternoon’s feeding program, she is recognized on Tayuman Street, and is given high fives and fist bumps by casual passers-by. She does not seem disoriented in the least. She appears to have clicked her heels, remembered she’s a statesman. Despite her smooth, assured manner, it can’t escape notice how de Lima has had to pass through an open street watched only by a single handler: no entourage in sight, and no bodyguards. It’s a ballsy move.

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“Huwag mawalan ng pag-asa,” she tells today’s visitors, and serves herself as an example. If someone in her position has never lost hope—a woman detained for claims insupportable in a court of law and across several years at that—no one should give up hope.

It can be said that de Lima comes from a remarkable line of opposition senators detained for trumped-up charges under authoritarian governments. In 2009, she investigated extrajudicial killings believed to be executed by a vigilante squad hired to execute petty criminals and drug pushers in Davao. The group is widely believed to have operated under the orders of the former President, serving as the muscle behind his “war on drugs.”

Casualties included children as collateral damage. While the former President was then-mayor of Davao City, de Lima was the chairperson of the Commission on Human Rights. Theirs was a cat-and-mouse game, with two power players playing off each other in various stages of their political careers. Considered one of the ex-President's fiercest critics, de Lima and her political advocacy led to what she has called a sham inquiry into her now-dismissed “involvement” in a high-profile drug trade. This inquiry led to her detention in 2017.

“I was very conscious about not having a single idle moment so that I wouldn’t think of any kind of negativity. I wanted to fight against any kind of depression.”

There’s a little wear and tear today in both her voice and manner—perhaps we can owe them to all those lost years. The old cocksure stance has mellowed into humility and grace. “Of course, it was a struggle,” de Lima says of her days in Camp Crame, “spiritually, physically, emotionally. A struggle indeed. But I was very conscious of the fact that I should not lose faith.”

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She continued the fight, she says, for the sake of family and friends. And, most importantly, for the sake of the people whose rights she was fighting for. De Lima also made the most out of her detention. “I was very conscious about not having a single idle moment so that I wouldn’t think of any kind of negativity. I wanted to fight against any kind of depression.”

Keeping her company were 20 cats and endless tomes donated by friends—books across several genres, read from and switched so hastily, only a handful were ever finished from cover to cover. The collection was that vast.

There was also a garden, she says, and a newfound gratitude for ordinary things. “I appreciated almost everything I could see in my quarters. These were mundane things I never got to appreciate when I was out there. To me, that was a blessing. I didn’t deserve to be in jail but [in light of things previously overlooked] the detention was a blessing.”

“It can only be positive. It can only be good for us because withdrawing from the ICC in the first place was wrong. It was really to serve the interest of one man.” 

Despite that small, contracted world, de Lima maintains that she turned expansive during her detention.  “Now there’s this discovery also within myself that, honestly, I have the resilience and the strength and the fortitude that I never knew I could still possess—even if I knew that I was a strong person. I was pretty clear about the reasons why this was done to me—they wanted me to be silenced, they wanted to break my spirit because I was fighting for the rights of others—but there’s still more of me.”

Released with de Lima last month were five of the 20 cats. Elective human affinity has earned them names: Avatar and Doll. Duchess. Lily. Otto. Names we could have conceivably given to imaginary friends in the prisons of our childhood. Perhaps also released with de Lima was a reinforced sense of self. There’s the kind of courage one brandishes when one overcomes a paralyzing fear, and there’s a de Lima kind of courage that owes its teeth to the person and not the circumstance.



The fresh start for the former senator comes at a charged and curious time. The International Criminal Court (ICC) has announced the resumption of its probe into extrajudicial killings committed during the drug war. “I’m all for it,” de Lima says of the probe. “It can only be positive. It can only be good for us because withdrawing from the ICC in the first place was wrong. It was really to serve the interest of one man.”

De Lima seems more eager than ever to serve a community of nations who, she asserts, “would be fighting impunity, fighting violators of grave human rights—those who commit crimes of the gravest international concern.” She’s all for that, she repeats, naming her nemesis without saying his name.

As talk turns to various political concerns—the existence of a true opposition, say, or the poetic justice of things coming full circle, or even political forecasts whose outcomes can only be realized in time, de Lima tells this writer that she is free to say anything that has been said here today. Nothing, she says, is off the record.

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Story: Mookie Katigbak Lacuesta
Photographer: Paul Sugano
Grooming: Lillian Yeung
Editor-in-Chief: Paul John Caña
Production: Bryle B. Suralta
Creative Direction: Igi Talao
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Special thanks to the AJ Kalinga Foundation, Inc.

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